+It really baffles me how obviously healthy, and thin girls would even consider themselves fat. And then I remember a much younger version of myself: 4”11 weighing about 100 pounds, wearing size 0 and size small shirts. I was always bustier than the other girls around me, and I got hated on it frequently. I was called fat so many times that I just started to believe it myself.
It really makes me think about how much we really do listen to what other people think, and say. People can really get inside your head and fuck with you. I just don’t understand what they benefit from breaking down a person.
Why is it so easy to think so poorly about yourself when honestly you look fine. Is it because we compare ourselves, or we just want to strive to be better than what we are already because we will never feel adequate or good enough?
Are the numbers on the scale going to rule your entire direction in your life? It’s scary thinking about how much weight is an issue for people nowadays, even myself. It’s scary that even if it is a little number it could impact a person so much.
I don’t really know what I’m getting at here, but all I can say is that you need to stop thinking your weight determines your beauty. I know that sounds really gay, but it’s true. Being bigger doesn’t make you any less of a person, and same goes for being smaller. Beauty comes within a person, and it is not measured by how much a person weights.
I still check on you.
+No matter what happened between us, or how long its been since we last talked, I still care, I wanna know you’re doing and feeling. I don’t stalk you but just enough to know you’re okay because you’re still that person I miss and the person who will always be in my heart.
Have you ever found yourself hearing that one song that reminds you of them…
+You start to feel uneasy, because memories and old feelings are being brought back. You try to sing it to make it seem like it’s not affecting you, but in reality it does. But you still enjoy the song for what it’s worth. Yup
- Teacher: Why did you not study?
- Me: A year has 365 days for you to study. After taking away 52 Sundays, there are only 313 days left. There are 50 days in the summer that is way too hot to work so there are only 263 days left. We sleep 8 hours a day, in a year, that counts up to 122 days so now we're left with 141 days. If we fooled around for only 1 hour a day, 15 days are gone, so we are left with 126 days. We spend 2 hours eating each day, 30 days are used in this way in the year, and we are left with 96 days in our year. We spend 1 hour a day speaking to friends and family, that takes away 15 days more and we are left with 81 days. Exams and tests take up at least 35 days in your year, hence you are only left with 46 days. Taking off approximately 40 days of holidays, you are only left with 6 days. Say you are sick for a minimum of 3 days, you're left with 3 days in the year to study! Let's say you only go out for 2 days... You're left with 1 day. But that 1 day is your birthday.
